1. |
Lost In The Sentiment
03:20
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Just a shot in the dark
Did you do this on purpose
Tied a noose around my neck
But kept the loose end in hand
When you left
So you could still know where I am
Yes, I know you don't want to hear my voice
But I've gotta ask, was it worth it?
Rub my tired eyes
You're the only one
That knows it right
Say "go back to sleep
I'll watch over you the whole time
I won't leave your side"
But you up and left me here
So now I'm trying to be confident
Lost in this sentiment,
Of who the hell are you
And what am I to do
About this sinking vessel
You cut up and sent me off in
Rub my tired eyes
You're the only one
That knows it right
Say "go back to sleep
I'll watch over you the whole time
I won't leave your side"
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2. |
Sold
03:25
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My mother told me
You're talking in your sleep again
Your knuckles are white
The calls last until the morning
Mom, between dad
The house, the girl,
And my old band
It's been a pretty rough fucking year
Now it's raining and it's cold
Driving, I see the water on the roads
And I wish it'd just take me on its own
Because I doubt I could ever be that bold
But the thought of leaving has me sold
Well I think maybe
I've lost too much along the way
And lately that's been hard for me to face
So she said "Baby,
I've got you now, it's all okay"
But baby, it's not your voice
That helps me breathe
She told me
"You're talking in your sleep again
You're knuckles are white
The calls last until the morning"
Babe, between losing all my friends
And using you for what you'd call love
It's been a pretty rough fucking year
Now the sun is facing home
Walking, I see there's beauty on my own
And I wish I knew
Where I'd stand when I am grown
Because honestly
I've no clue where to go
But the thought of leaving has me sold
Well I think maybe
I've lost too much along the way
And lately that's been hard for me to face
So she said "Baby,
I've got you now, it's all okay"
But baby, it's not your voice
That helps me breathe
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3. |
Not Where I Saw Myself
03:59
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That dreadful week in August
Just days after my birthday
Not the first time it's ended that way
Guess I'm cursed
To still hate this month
Try to forget that day
And pack your things away
You're the same, nothing changed
You showed your true face
With the games you were playing
Boarded all the doors your friends had left open in case
And hoped we'd forget your name
I used to sleep in your flannel shirts
Sometimes I still do
And it still hurts
I see at times
You still wear my old sweaters out
And they still suit you-
Cool, but cold
She brushed her teeth
With warm water
Oftenly in the shower
And I still dream of those mornings
We'd close the curtains
And listen to 'Illuminate'
As the steam rose
And kissed our face
You're the same
Nothing's fucking changed
You showed me your fangs
Now I'm not playing your game
You burned away the bridges
All our friends had left open in case
And hoped we'd forget your name
And I'm ashamed that it won't fade
I used to sleep in your flannel shirts
Sometimes I still do
And it still hurts
I see at times
You still wear my old sweaters out
And they still suit you-
Cool, but cold
It's taken me two whole years
To pick my pens back up
And write this all down
To fucking spell out
How I'm doing
Now that you're not around
And if you really care to know
I'm not doing hot at all
I never saw myself without you
2014 was the worst year
I think I've ever been through
I miss your dog and holding hands
I miss listening to our favorite bands
Apologies are overdue
But I'd still give anything
Just to hear from you
Why'd you let me go?
Why'd you let me go? x2
I used to sleep in your flannel shirts
Sometimes I still do
And it still hurts
I see at times
You still wear my old sweaters out
And they still suit you-
Cool, but cold
It's taken me two whole years
To pick my pens back up
And write this all down
To fucking spell out
How I'm doing
Now that you're not around
I'm getting better
With each and every song
That dreadful week in August
Just days after my birthday
Not the first time
It's ended that way
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4. |
The Person I Can't Be
03:37
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I'm biting holes through my lips again
While I try to come to grips
With all of this
I'm sick
I guess you were contagious
Rooted your cold
Now I'm so indifferent
Gotta run when love turns its eye on me
Gotta stall and find a reason not to sleep
Gotta pretend I'm still listening
When she's telling me her stories
And I wish that I could feel sorry
When she's telling me her stories
I wish that I could feel something
I know you want the person I can't be
It's a god damn mess inside my head
These fake smiles come so easily now
& I can hardly recognize my own skin
I know you want the person I can't be
I'm fighting the thoughts inside my head
Everybody lies so seamlessly
But I'm still hung up on who I have been
I'm biting holes through my lips again
While I try to come to grips
With all of this
I'm sick
I guess you were contagious
Rooted your cold
Now I'm so indifferent
Gotta run when love turns its eye on me
Gotta stall and find a reason not to sleep
Gotta pretend I'm still listening
When she's telling me her stories
And I wish that I could feel sorry
When she's telling me her stories
I wish that I could feel something
I've been laying beside you for too long
There's emptiness where there should be intimacy
You only see what you want to see
We're only prolonging our history
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5. |
Better Days
04:11
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Pull my paintings off the walls
Ignore my drunken calls
This may have been
The worst of me you’ve seen yet
Take my clothes off of your bed
Cry a little bit
Having them saved you from
So many nights of loneliness
I’ve had better days
But I’m stuck here with these
Broken Memories
They’re stories that I’ll tell my friends
Write all but your name into my songs
Forget all I got wrong
This is probably
The best I’ve been at since
Pack all my clothes into boxes
Laugh a little bit
This past year of plans
Saved me from
So many nights of hopelessness
See I’ve had better days
But I’m stuck here with these
Broken memories
They’re stories that I’ll tell my friends
You took a part of me
Now I’m changing all of these
Fading memories
To stories I’ll tell my friends
You said it’s all we ever
It’s all we ever could
Feel at this age
It’s all we ever
All we ever could
Feel at this age
And for the past few years
I’ve felt this
And I wish I could say
It got easier
You make it sound like
This wasn’t worth it
And maybe that’s the part
That lingered
Maybe thats the part
That set me free
See I’ve had better days
But I’m stuck here with these
Broken memories
They’re stories that I’ll tell my friends
You took a part of me
Now I’m changing all of these
Fading memories
To stories I’ll tell my friends
You said it’s all we ever
It’s all we ever could
Feel at this age
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6. |
Her
04:46
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She comes home from far away
Speaks to me like it's only been a day
This time I don't feel as afraid
To tell her I wish she would have stayed
She comes home for winter break
Family has me over, we say grace
On the couch, she falls asleep as we lay
I wouldn't trade this for the world
These days, my perfect place
Summer ends
Move her to her new place
Three hours closer
Not quite so far away
Meet the new friends
Put names to faces
Then I see his
I still remember that day
She calls my phone
Says we can meet half way
I take the keys and her things
We walk that park, she stops to say
"Will you be okay?"
I haven't been since that day
No, I haven't been since that day
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7. |
Drawn Out
03:05
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I've drawn this so far out
I forget
What I'm so fucking mad about
But for now
Writing these songs about you
Has been the easiest
For me to do
And you swore that I could sleep, Easy
Said I'd never have to sing
Of you leaving
Well, here I am singing
Sometimes
It feels like all we have
Are rainy nights
Lately it's been
Hard enough to even
turn off the lights
Sometimes
It seems like we just want
To win a fight
Sometimes
You just aren't right
You just aren't right
Why did you
Hold so tight
You couldn't breathe
I never gave you
A reason to think
I would leave
Why can't I
Catch my breath even now
I still look for you
In everyone
When you're so far gone
You're so far gone
And you swore that I could sleep, Easy
Said I'd never have to sing
Of you leaving
And I swore I'd never sink
This deep
Said I'd never let someone
Take it all away
But it feels like you
Fucking killed me
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