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No Longer There

by Royal Oaks

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Liam Oweida An absolutely flawless album with great depth and energy. Has helped me through a lot of stuff Favorite track: Not Where I Saw Myself.
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1.
Just a shot in the dark Did you do this on purpose Tied a noose around my neck But kept the loose end in hand When you left So you could still know where I am Yes, I know you don't want to hear my voice But I've gotta ask, was it worth it? Rub my tired eyes You're the only one That knows it right Say "go back to sleep I'll watch over you the whole time I won't leave your side" But you up and left me here So now I'm trying to be confident Lost in this sentiment, Of who the hell are you And what am I to do About this sinking vessel You cut up and sent me off in Rub my tired eyes You're the only one That knows it right Say "go back to sleep I'll watch over you the whole time I won't leave your side"
2.
Sold 03:25
My mother told me You're talking in your sleep again Your knuckles are white The calls last until the morning Mom, between dad The house, the girl, And my old band It's been a pretty rough fucking year Now it's raining and it's cold Driving, I see the water on the roads And I wish it'd just take me on its own Because I doubt I could ever be that bold But the thought of leaving has me sold Well I think maybe I've lost too much along the way And lately that's been hard for me to face So she said "Baby, I've got you now, it's all okay" But baby, it's not your voice That helps me breathe She told me "You're talking in your sleep again You're knuckles are white The calls last until the morning" Babe, between losing all my friends And using you for what you'd call love It's been a pretty rough fucking year Now the sun is facing home Walking, I see there's beauty on my own And I wish I knew Where I'd stand when I am grown Because honestly I've no clue where to go But the thought of leaving has me sold Well I think maybe I've lost too much along the way And lately that's been hard for me to face So she said "Baby, I've got you now, it's all okay" But baby, it's not your voice That helps me breathe
3.
That dreadful week in August Just days after my birthday Not the first time it's ended that way Guess I'm cursed To still hate this month Try to forget that day And pack your things away You're the same, nothing changed You showed your true face With the games you were playing Boarded all the doors your friends had left open in case And hoped we'd forget your name I used to sleep in your flannel shirts Sometimes I still do And it still hurts I see at times You still wear my old sweaters out And they still suit you- Cool, but cold She brushed her teeth With warm water Oftenly in the shower And I still dream of those mornings We'd close the curtains And listen to 'Illuminate' As the steam rose And kissed our face You're the same Nothing's fucking changed You showed me your fangs Now I'm not playing your game You burned away the bridges All our friends had left open in case And hoped we'd forget your name And I'm ashamed that it won't fade I used to sleep in your flannel shirts Sometimes I still do And it still hurts I see at times You still wear my old sweaters out And they still suit you- Cool, but cold It's taken me two whole years To pick my pens back up And write this all down To fucking spell out How I'm doing Now that you're not around And if you really care to know I'm not doing hot at all I never saw myself without you 2014 was the worst year I think I've ever been through I miss your dog and holding hands I miss listening to our favorite bands Apologies are overdue But I'd still give anything Just to hear from you Why'd you let me go? Why'd you let me go? x2 I used to sleep in your flannel shirts Sometimes I still do And it still hurts I see at times You still wear my old sweaters out And they still suit you- Cool, but cold It's taken me two whole years To pick my pens back up And write this all down To fucking spell out How I'm doing Now that you're not around I'm getting better With each and every song That dreadful week in August Just days after my birthday Not the first time It's ended that way
4.
I'm biting holes through my lips again While I try to come to grips With all of this I'm sick I guess you were contagious Rooted your cold Now I'm so indifferent Gotta run when love turns its eye on me Gotta stall and find a reason not to sleep Gotta pretend I'm still listening When she's telling me her stories And I wish that I could feel sorry When she's telling me her stories I wish that I could feel something I know you want the person I can't be It's a god damn mess inside my head These fake smiles come so easily now & I can hardly recognize my own skin I know you want the person I can't be I'm fighting the thoughts inside my head Everybody lies so seamlessly But I'm still hung up on who I have been I'm biting holes through my lips again While I try to come to grips With all of this I'm sick I guess you were contagious Rooted your cold Now I'm so indifferent Gotta run when love turns its eye on me Gotta stall and find a reason not to sleep Gotta pretend I'm still listening When she's telling me her stories And I wish that I could feel sorry When she's telling me her stories I wish that I could feel something I've been laying beside you for too long There's emptiness where there should be intimacy You only see what you want to see We're only prolonging our history
5.
Better Days 04:11
Pull my paintings off the walls Ignore my drunken calls This may have been The worst of me you’ve seen yet Take my clothes off of your bed Cry a little bit Having them saved you from So many nights of loneliness I’ve had better days But I’m stuck here with these Broken Memories They’re stories that I’ll tell my friends Write all but your name into my songs Forget all I got wrong This is probably The best I’ve been at since Pack all my clothes into boxes Laugh a little bit This past year of plans Saved me from So many nights of hopelessness See I’ve had better days But I’m stuck here with these Broken memories They’re stories that I’ll tell my friends You took a part of me Now I’m changing all of these Fading memories To stories I’ll tell my friends You said it’s all we ever It’s all we ever could Feel at this age It’s all we ever All we ever could Feel at this age And for the past few years I’ve felt this And I wish I could say It got easier You make it sound like This wasn’t worth it And maybe that’s the part That lingered Maybe thats the part That set me free See I’ve had better days But I’m stuck here with these Broken memories They’re stories that I’ll tell my friends You took a part of me Now I’m changing all of these Fading memories To stories I’ll tell my friends You said it’s all we ever It’s all we ever could Feel at this age
6.
Her 04:46
She comes home from far away Speaks to me like it's only been a day This time I don't feel as afraid To tell her I wish she would have stayed She comes home for winter break Family has me over, we say grace On the couch, she falls asleep as we lay I wouldn't trade this for the world These days, my perfect place Summer ends Move her to her new place Three hours closer Not quite so far away Meet the new friends Put names to faces Then I see his I still remember that day She calls my phone Says we can meet half way I take the keys and her things We walk that park, she stops to say "Will you be okay?" I haven't been since that day No, I haven't been since that day
7.
Drawn Out 03:05
I've drawn this so far out I forget What I'm so fucking mad about But for now Writing these songs about you Has been the easiest For me to do And you swore that I could sleep, Easy Said I'd never have to sing Of you leaving Well, here I am singing Sometimes It feels like all we have Are rainy nights Lately it's been Hard enough to even turn off the lights Sometimes It seems like we just want To win a fight Sometimes You just aren't right You just aren't right Why did you Hold so tight You couldn't breathe I never gave you A reason to think I would leave Why can't I Catch my breath even now I still look for you In everyone When you're so far gone You're so far gone And you swore that I could sleep, Easy Said I'd never have to sing Of you leaving And I swore I'd never sink This deep Said I'd never let someone Take it all away But it feels like you Fucking killed me

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released June 25, 2017

Recorded by Levi Hamilton at Audioboogie Studios in Brunswick, GA.
Mixed/Mastered by Beau Burchell of Saosin in Orange County, CA.
Music written and performed by Royal Oaks.
Bass guitar written/performed by Levi Hamilton on tracks 'Better Days' and 'Not Where I Saw Myself'.
Cover photo taken by Emily Dunker and edited by Nathan Humphrey.

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Royal Oaks is Tim Dunker, Chris Humphrey, and Tim Gillespie.

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